Disappointed

In these past days i got problem with my job.
What I had no everything is wrong.
I have tried my best, I felt useless.

Till I heard my boss said '' disappointed with me''.
I think is it clear? I think all day and night.
Hurting me badly. What I should do next?

Other side want to resign and the other side want to stay.
There are no reason for me to stay.
For what stay if the boss actually don't want me.

I just hope my days become better.
God bless :)

Sunday

Sunday, July 10 2016

Today enjoyed my day at my sweet room.
Currently i spend my day just at home. Alone all day? Yes I am.

You know, today is someone Birthday. And i don't remember that. OMG
At least i had greeted to him. Not too late right?
And I really not expected by his respond.
'' Is that you? ''

wah. i dont get it what his mean.
hmm. A bit glad I can communicated with him.
And yeah. That's all.
I got now! He thought I don't want talk to him.

Exactly I just don't know what should I do, and I also don't know what to talk.

Today 10 July. that is mean tomorrow someone back to Batam from his hometown.
I can't wait to meet him. Is he miss me?
Hoho.

Wan an.

Part of My Life

Its been a long time.

hello: it is Me.

I don't know why, suddenly i just wanna to make something new in my life.
Maybe too bored with this life? yeahh.. currently i just felt lonely,
But, i can't do much. I just can do whatever i can,
whatever make me comfort and whatever not to trouble anyone.

Hmm.. From where i would start my story? Haha i am not good at telling story.

Here, first my biggest monster in my life are still belong to me.
I could not handle it, even if i had trying harder to control by my self.

Had been 3 years ago, maybe? hahha.

I miss them, a lot.. if times can turn back :) i wish to. But yeah! just keep forward!
I can realize that, after they all leave me, i changed a lot.
Made me thought hard to trust people in this life.
But Sometimes, i want like others people, play with theirs friends, hang out together, talk every time, met together, ect some bestfriend do?
I am just tired of fake people. Why just they can be real?

I just wish this sucks memories go away from my life.
Every single about them it just making me irritated. Just made me like bad people.

Next,
Now, i want to introducing someone who always beside me, however i mad to him, however i always made mistake, however always blame him.
He is always nice to me.

Ya, I know him from October 2015 but the story began from November 2015.
When he confessed his feeling to me. Is it fast? YES so fast! hahahha.

Till now we are both know each other for almost 9 month.
At the end, he the one who closest with me.
Till now.

And 2 month more, he will going scholarship to China for 2 years?
I can't imagine and i can't say much for this.

Can i wait him to come back for 2 years?

Let's See.




I just hope that good things come to me and people around me.


Wan an.